Friday, February 09, 2007

Results

This is what it boils down to.. knowing I’ve made a difference for some of these students, as corny as it sounds. So glad that passing English has opened a few more doors for them, so glad that I know I really put in my best last year, and have become more competent as a teacher.

Is it true to say that when we become very good at something we should move on to new challenges?

It is against the sweet satisfaction of today’s O Level results that I receive news my scholarship application has been supported by my boss. Still a few more hurdles to cross – interview, panel deliberation, college acceptance. But the moment I found out the light had turned green again, I felt a sudden panic.

Leave Singapore? Just when I’m starting to really love it? Leave teaching, just when I’ve reached a level of competence that genuinely value-adds to students? Leave – just when there may be a reason to stay?

Silly confused girl.

But thankful thankful thankful for blessings both great and small.

Over and over again today, my attention is directed to
Romans 8:28
‘ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose.’

God works.

Works these random things together.

Works in mysterious ways, flabbergasting at times, perturbing at times, distressing at times, wondrous at times.

I shall be still.